Wow. Christmas came and went with a blur. Really. I can't believe that it is over, and not only over, but a whole week over. We had a beautiful time with our families. It was our final year of spending the night Christmas Eve at my mom's and waking up there for Christmas morning. It is time to say goodbye to my Christmas childhood tradition and start making those memories here, at home, for our children. But it was wonderful to squeak one more out. My extended family came over for the dinner that my mom cooked (40+ people~ my mom will feed anyone that shows up). The highlight was when I gave my Grandma and Grandpa their present, a wall clock that I searched high and low for because Grandma absolutely loves flowers, so I wanted one that was flowery. I finally found a Thomas Kinkade one and when she opened it, her whole beautiful face just lit up. I love that woman. I really, really do.
The boys enjoyed Christmas morning immensely. Noah was already a pro at opening presents because the entire week prior to Christmas Landon was wrapping up his old toys and putting them in his black library bag, then putting a Santa hat on and taking the gifts to our tree. There he would "unload" them all under the tree and him and Noah would sit there for a good twenty minutes while Noah unwrapped them all. It was really precious...and certainly prepared Noah for the real deal. Oh yes...and for those of you who remembered...Landon has hardly let go of Clarebel since she officially became his...and yes, he kisses her every night...but never goodbye
We went to Jonathan's sisters house Christmas evening where we saw his entire family and enjoyed dessert. Again, we had a beautiful time visiting with one another and watching the kids play together. We had another extended family Christmas on Saturday, company Sunday night, Monday night and Tuesday night. And probably overnight visitors early next week. We have been busy.
My internship is going really well. I had a session on Christmas Eve and am really starting to get in the groove, at least with this client. I am really enjoying the counseling aspect of my internship. I am still a bit apprehensive about the Well of Grace house, but confident that in time, I will do well there as well. If nothing else, it is a prime opportunity to make a real difference in some girls' lives...and I don't want to miss that.
And now we are on the eve of New Years. We have a nice quiet evening with one couple coming over here planned. I am making veggie pizza and meat balls and bbq waterchestnut-bacon wraps. We will be playing games and chatting all night long. I am really looking forward to it. But I have to say, again, that the whole one year gone, another soon beginning thing is just throwing me for a loop. Time is going so very fast.
How do I feel about 2008? I suppose there is much I wish I had done differently, and yet...a lot that was wonderful too. I finished school this year and I passed my comprehensives. I had the privelege of having front row seats to watch my boys grow into best friends. We are all healthy, and there were no life-altering illnesses or injuries. I lost no one I love. I found a few long lost friends. A lot of good came with this year. My hope for 2009 is that I will find the peace that my soul is so desperately searching for. That I won't long for the past, or fear the future. That God will heal what is broken, and restore what needs new life. That my home will be filled with joy and laughter and memories that fill our hearts with familiar nostalgia. And that foundationally, I will have the courage to stop running from that which makes me feel and relearn to embrace pain, to let go of bitterness, to forgive freely as I have been forgiven, and to trust in Love.
Happy New Year my friends...on we go into 2009...